Waiting on Wednesday | 1

Helllooooo, all people interested in books. Waiting on Wednesday is a bookish meme hosted by Jill of Breaking the Spine in which bloggers/readers/cats tell other bloggers/readers/cats what upcoming book(s) they are anticipating. This is my first post within the WoW meme and today I’ve got a contemporary novel that I am dying to read. Release already!

Novel: Things We Know by Heart by Jessi Kirby | Goodreads
Release Date: April 21, 2015
Publisher: HarperTeen

17571215When Quinn Sullivan meets the recipient of her boyfriend’s donated heart, the two form an unexpected connection.

After Quinn loses her boyfriend, Trent, in an accident their junior year, she reaches out to the recipients of his donated organs in hopes of picking up the pieces of her now-unrecognizable life. She hears back from some of them, but the person who received Trent’s heart has remained silent. The essence of a person, she has always believed, is in the heart. If she finds Trent’s, then maybe she can have peace once and for all.

Risking everything in order to finally lay her memories to rest, Quinn goes outside the system to track down nineteen-year-old Colton Thomas—a guy whose life has been forever changed by this priceless gift. But what starts as an accidental run-in quickly develops into more, sparking an undeniable attraction. She doesn’t want to give in to it—especially since he has no idea how they’re connected—but their time together has made Quinn feel alive again. No matter how hard she’s falling for Colton, each beat of his heart reminds her of all she’s lost…and all that remains at stake.

Please read the synopsis and tell me you are bored to tears. That’s right, you can’t. Because it sounds amazing. I haven’t wanted to get my hands on a book so desperately in ages, but when I found this one on Goodreads, I was SOLD. This premise, this concept, this cover- everything about Things We Know by Heart looks wonderful and unique. I’ve never read a book related to organ transplants before, nor have I wanted to until now. I predict that this will be an intensely emotional read, with a well-thought plot and lots of gush and grief to boot. April 21st, can you come any sooner?

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I Remember

Oh, I remember this feeling.

When hunger is power. When black and white is everything. When glistening sweat and sore shins mark us as different, special. Protruding bones and control are currency and I want to be rich. We trade secrets, all-or-nothings; two pounds, five pounds, as much as we can peel off ourself. And then before we know it, we’re weightless, floating on wisps of the air that we consume, made only of sunken eyes and hollow cheeks and sharp collarbones and a spine we can see as we glance behind us in the mirror, filled with paranoia. Everyone is watching as we clutch our ribs, poking and prodding through the gaps until we seize our own beating heart; mine, yours. Thump, thump, thump.

It feels good at first, you and I joined together as one. The honeymoon stage, one might call it. But soon it’ll be a game of tug o’ war, lasting only seconds until it’s no longer a game but a fight to the death for one of us, maybe both of us. Neither can live while the other survives. And though I’ve kept you under reigns so far, you’re slowly creeping back from the darkest corners of my mind, seeping into my bones until you and I are conjoined once more, “as it should be,” you whisper.

I haven’t spiraled yet. But still, after all these years of pushing you back and tucking you away, after all this time of folding you neatly into a chest inside my skull along with my other demons – still a part of me longs to lose control in the black hole you belong to. They don’t teach us this in school, that control and chaos are long lost twins – it is impossible to possess one without the other. I crave the rigidness you offer me, yet I know I am only a host whom you will inevitably take over. And I’m not sure yet whether I’m willing to go down that path again with you, a trip down memory lane for old times’ sake. If I do I will surely go down in flames, screaming while you smile and slither back, waiting for the next time my despair comes calling. But I cannot walk this road alone. Right now, all I know is that I don’t want it to stop, this feeling that I remember so vividly from the period I worked so hard to repress. I don’t want to forget anymore.

So we beat on.

Lately

February has been the most stressful month I’ve had in a long time. I’ve been swamped with responsibilities and work and deadlines and for most of the month I’ve felt like I’m drowning/constantly on the verge of tears. But anyway, since I haven’t had time to write any of the posts I was planning to write this month, here’s a quick summary of what’s been going on.

Music
What Kind of Man by Florence + The Machine
Love Me Like You Do by Ellie Goulding
Uptown Funk by Mark Ronson, feat. Bruno Mars
Work It by Missy Elliott
Prayer In C by Lilly Wood & The Prick and Robin Shulz
This Playlist
This Playlist

Also, check out Taylor Swift’s Style music video (it’s artsy) and the Uptown Funk music video (it’s dancy).

Book Releases
Red Queen by Victoria Aveyard | Goodreads
The Ruby Circle by Richelle Mead | Goodreads
The Sin Eater’s Daughter by Melinda Salisbury | Goodreads
My Heart and Other Black Holes by Jasmine Warga | Goodreads

Television
Reign | Watch
Dance Moms | Watch
Pretty Little Liars | Watch

News

I have no idea if I’ll manage to get another post up this week but I’m aiming to do a February wrap-up next weekend. Bonne semaine à tous!

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January Reading Wrap-Up

One of my reading goals for 2015 (which I still haven’t written a post on) is to read five books each month. Not an average of five books a month, not 60 books this year, but five books every month. In the month of January, I read a total of six books. In the past, January has been one of my biggest reading months of the year; I usually clock in with 10+ books. But I got off to a slow start and didn’t begin reading my first book this month until January 15th. C’est la vie. Here are the books I finished this month, followed by a brief recount of my thoughts.

The Kiss of Deception by Mary E. Pearson
Synopsis | I loved this book. It was one of my most anticipated books of 2014, but sadly I didn’t get to it until this year. It reminded me a bit of the Throne of Glass series in terms of the way it made me feel. I finished it the same day I started it. It’s a fantasy novel and I think it’d be great for people looking to get into the genre. I had very high expectations for this novel and it amazingly surpassed them. This was a great start to the series and I can’t wait for the sequel to release in July. | My Goodreads Review 5/5 stars

Heir of Fire by Sarah J. Maas
Synopsis | This is the third book in the Throne of Glass fantasy series. If you saw my Top 15 post, you know that this was the number one book from my shelves that I wanted to get to in 2015. I did, and my mind is BLOWN. This book was outstanding, just like the other books in the series and I was so, so happy with it. I literally cannot wait for the fourth installment. The Throne of Glass series is one of my all time favorites and I highly recommend picking up these books. | My Goodreads Review 5/5 stars

Mortal Heart by Robin LaFevers
Synopsis | This is the third book in the historical fiction/fantasy trilogy, His Fair Assassin. I was slightly disappointed because I expected so much from this book- the first two installments are two of my favorite books. I didn’t think this one was as good as those, but I still enjoyed it; it was by no means a bad book. This trilogy is about the French duchy of Brittany in the 15th century and each book follows a different female protagonist, each an assassin and handmaiden/daughter of Death. I definitely recommend it and the fantasy elements are minimal and realistic to the times. | My Goodreads Review 4/5 stars

Evertrue by Brodi Ashton
Synopsis | This is the third book in the paranormal, mythology-based Everneath trilogy. The premise is loosely based on the Greek myth of Persephone, but it’s far different than other young adult retellings I’ve read. I usually despise paranormal romance books for many reasons (I need write a rant post sometime), but I found this trilogy very enjoyable. It was a fun, easy read that made me laugh and that I didn’t have to take very seriously. It’s quick and teenager-ish and I embraced its typical paranormal romance qualities, although it stood out to me because it in some ways defied the normal cookie cutter format of the genre. I think anyone who loves paranormal romance will get a kick out of this trilogy and maybe even some people like me who dislike the genre. | My Goodreads Review 5/5 stars

The Evolution of Mara Dyer by Michelle Hodkin
Synopsis | This is the second book in the paranormal/supernatural Mara Dyer trilogy. After reading the first book, despite really liking it, it took me over a year to pick this one up because these books are such heavy reads for me. It’s dark, creepy, eerily reminiscent of a horror story. Technically, it’s a paranormal romance series, so naturally I have my issues with it. But I do really like the series, and I liked this book- it’s completely different than anything I’ve ever read. I haven’t purchased the third book yet. I for sure want to read it but after completing this installment, I felt exhausted and drained. Who knows, maybe it’ll be another year before I finally finish off this trilogy. | My Goodreads Review 4/5 stars

Anatomy of a Misfit by Andrea Portes
Synopsis | This is a standalone contemporary novel. It follows a main character named Anika who is half Romanian who lives in Nebraska with her mom, two siblings, stepdad, and two step-siblings. She has a witty and humorous voice, drily detailing her life as a 10th grade student. She deals with popularity, racism, nativist sentiments, petty theft, love, and friendship. While I didn’t give this book as high a rating as I usually give, I did enjoy it. I thought it was realistic, truly unfiltered. I do recommend it because I think it contains important messages and it is well-written and fun to read. | My Goodreads Review 3.5/5 stars

Overall, I really enjoyed the books I read this month. I started reading fantasy again (now I’m on a kick), read a few paranormal books, and even managed to squeeze in an entertaining contemporary. I also began Cress by Marissa Meyer, but put it down because I wasn’t in the mood for it. And throughout the month, I’ve slowly been working my way through Percy Jackson’s Greek Gods by Rick Riordan. I finished four of the books on my Top 15 TBR list for 2015. And I surpassed my goal of five books during the month. I have no idea what I’m going to read in February, but I’m excited for a new month of reading!